I woke up this morning with a reminder on my phone that I am 1 month alcohol free today! Yipee! I am not going to lie, this month has been a breeze. The only time I felt truly tested was my bridal shower, and even then, it was a quick NO.
My mind is back and forth a lot which I think is to be expected. One minute I am so happy that I have quit, and picture myself years from now, still sober, so proud of who I had become. Then, literally a couple minutes later I will be feeling sorry for myself and wishing I could drink in Mexico etc., But, I am starting to realize that these are thoughts not facts and I am SOOO glad that I didnt act on them.
My cousin Jackie is just over a year sober, which is awesome!! She is in my wedding party and is the same age as me. She is going to be my biggest support system. I do not know if I could do it without her. I think God planned that for me. Thank you God!
The last month felt like an eternity, but I have a feeling this month is going to pass quickly.
Thoughts on 1 month sober:
- Havent woken up with a hangover
- Havent cyclically puked once
- My anxiety is 50% less than what it used to be
- My depression has also lessened considerably
- I am beginning to get my self esteem and pride back
- I am proud of myself
- I have started to connect with other sober people
- I am interested in goals and passions again
ALL positives! The only thing I have to start being mindful of is my eating. I have been eating all the bad things. Sweets, chips, pop, pizza. I know my body was craving comfort, so I let it happen. But, my wedding is 3 weeks away, so its crunch time until then, and I will come home to celebrate with a HUGE HAWAIIAN PIZZA!