I survived my own bridal shower sober! And, I had the best time ever. Crazy right?
Starting from the beginning: I was getting ready and just thinking thoughts of alcohol all day long. I even went and opened the alcohol cabinet and stared at it (forgot to close cupboard so when hubby came home he was scared I had drank). Wanting to drink because it is just so ingrained in me as a habit, and since most of my alcohol abuse stems from my so called social anxiety it was really hard for me not to do. ESPECIALLY since Its a party in my honor and that makes me feel weird. However, I actually enjoyed having a party thrown for me, and I didn’t feel awkward and had the best time! It crazy my mind can make up all sorts of different scenarios (all bad).
On the way there nothing went as planned. I was supposed to pick up the cake on the way. I didn’t realize the lady who made the cake lived on the other side of town now so I didn’t plan ahead well enough. I was supposed to be at my moms house at 1, and I was just leaving to get the cake at 1. Then of course, my mind mind is elsewhere so I missed a bunch of turns, got lost, got stuck behind every slow driver and hit every red light. Every fiber in my body wanted to drink. I did feel a bit shaky. By the time I got there, I didn’t have time to even think because I was late and guests were already there. Then I just went with it, filled up a wine glass with fresca, and sipped on it during the entire party.
Not one person asked me what I was drinking, or offered me a drink. I didn’t feel nervous or anxious at all and I thoroughly enjoyed opening all my gifts and feeling all the love from everyone.
Lots of people dipped out at 5pm when it was over, but some family stayed until about 6:30 and then they were going to go see “I, Tonya”. I was pretty tired, and just so glad I had made it through that I wanted to go home and relax with G and the boys! So thats what I did 🙂 Overall it went wonderful, and so glad I pushed through it, and so glad I got to start challenging some of these long held beliefs that arent even true!
Over all the positives are:
- I was present and took in the whole experience
- I remember everything
- I took the time to actually greet and say goodbye to each guest
- I took the time to speak with each guest and to thank each guest for their gift
- I didn’t really crave alcohol after the party got going
- I drove myself home
- I woke up so proud and so happy I didn’t drink
Things to take away from this experience:
- Its never as bad as your mind thinks it up to be
- Everyone gets nervous before parties
- It takes a while for the party to get going, thats normal
- Keep a mocktail in hand and keep it full
- Enjoy all the yummy treats and food(never did that when drinking)- seriously best part
- Take time to really be present and focus on other people and conversations and listening
- Drive so that you can feel like a badass going home sober- or in the event you feel at risk of drinking, you can get the hell out of there!
Now up is my bachelorette! 2 down, 2 to go!