Feeling pretty good this morning. Slept good last night, was in bed before 10pm and up to the gym at 6 this morning.
I love working out in the mornings as when I get home from a long day at the office I just do not want to go to the gym like at all.
I am using this booze free month to make sure that I get into good shape for our trip to Jamaica coming up in 6 weeks. I always wait till the last minute for everything and then go all in lol. I have such black and white thinking.
So I am eating healthy again, which is good, as for the past 2 months it hasn’t been so good. Pizza, chips, cookies, chocolate… I am always filling this massive whole I have with something. If it isn’t booze, its weed, or its food, or its binge reading and watching blogs and podcasts and books on being sober. I will take the last one any day though!
I am such a junkie for personal growth. I always want to be better, grow, change, learn… I have this imagine in my head of who I am supposed to be, and I get really upset when I don’t follow through with that. Its called a high dissonance situation, and it causes a lot of stress.
No cravings for alcohol yet, but cravings for weed, and bad foods… must persevere!