I had this kind of strange wanting to smoke yesterday feeling, but I wouldn’t call it a craving. More like, a habit. I ended up cleaning the house, doing laundry, making supper, watched Bachelor in Paradise, went to the gym and had a pretty productive day.
I fell asleep pretty easily, and had dreams again, I think one where I got in a fight with my mom, but I don’t really remember it all. I am not sweating very much at all anymore during the night. I woke up feeling pretty well rested as well.
It would seem things are on the up swing and that I am through the worst of it. I noticed I feel better in my eyes too, they aren’t red and itchy and swollen. Overall, I cant realty complain too much, except for these stupid f****** fruit flies in my office, which are going to make me have a break down lol.
I have 3 months to go until my friends wedding, so I think my next goal is to be to get a workout plan going, and take pics, and keep myself accountable. I need a goal to look forward too, to keep me motivated. I know I wont be smoking anymore, I would feel so guilty. I think I finally realize what it has been doing to me.
I am only on day 10 and I can already see so many positive changes. I cant wait until I am 1 month clean, then 3 months, I wonder what it will be like. I have never had pot out of my system for more than 3 weeks in the past 12 years.
I noticed that I am not overly worried about what people think of me, or paranoid like I was when I was smoking heavily too, oh and I am still coughing up black tar like every morning…. that’s my favorite part LOL.
Happy Wednesday folks.